Friday, November 12, 2010

Apologies, Depth, and Batmen…

OK so once again it’s been ages since I did one of these…hell, it’s been ages since I updated anything. I wish I could say I have a great reason for this, unfortunately pure laziness is the only excuse I can really offer.

Today I have a lot of topics I want to discuss but first up is something so simple it’s unreal and that is apologies. We all know my motto (courtesy of Brian Kinney) “No apologies, no regrets”. And yes, this is a motto a still try to live by…that being said sometimes you just have to make an apology. Let me give you some examples of when an apology is warranted. 1) When you do something wrong (duh), 2) You unknowingly hurt someone in some way, or 3) an action you took or are responsible for had a negative or undesired outcome. Of course those 3 are broad. I want to make it clear I’m not saying everyone that wants an apology should get one. Just me. I’m kidding of course. No, never apologize for who you are or what you stand for. Never apologize for an action you feel you were right about. Most importantly never apologize when you don’t mean it. But, let’s say you say something to someone that hurts them very deeply, should you apologize? If so, for what? Well obviously if you didn’t mean what you said then that would be the obvious one. Now let’s say you’re not sorry for what you said. Are you sorry for hurting someone with your words? If so then you would apologize for hurting them, not for the words. As Elton says ‘sorry is the hardest word’. Sometimes ‘sorry’ can also fix old wounds, if done without prompting. Sometimes you just wait too long and it’s too late to fix the damage. So people,my advice to you is this, if you’re in a situation where it is clear an apology is wanted then think about the following: 1) Am I sorry for what I did? 2) If not, am I sorry I hurt someone with my words/actions? If that answer is also no then don’t apologize but know you may lose the person wanting said apology. In the other hand if the reason you’re not apologizing is your pride then you’re a retard and you deserve to be alone. Pride won’t offer you a shoulder to cry on or a friendly ear.  Think about it.

Next topic. It’s Jovi-mania!!!! Yes, I am move Bon Jovi obsessed than normal thanks to the ‘Greatest Hits’ album that came out this week. Now I don’t know who came up with this track listing. I’m gonna said either Jonny or Obie…whoever it was, I really could have helped. There are some key songs missing from this collections, such as ‘Thank You For Loving Me”, ‘One Wild Night’, and “Till we ain’t strangers” to name a few. And please, tell me, why the hell is ‘Blood on Blood’ on this album? Seriously. OK, it was a live hit….that does not translate to ‘greatest hit’. Seriously Jonny, Obie, and anyone else that helped out with this, if you wanted to go that route it should be a ‘best of’ not ‘greatest hits’. Big difference. That being said, still a great album, love the new songs. One of my favorites is one, ironically, called ‘No Apologies’.

Next up, men…yes I rant about men daily. I rant about them in the blog. Normally my ex, but they all suck at various times. My problem at the moment is that the guys I seem to be attracting want one thing and they have three ‘D’s. My god, I am so sick of getting emails that say ‘ur hawt, u wanna hook up?’ or shit to that effect. For those that don’t realize, the answer to that is ‘NO!"’. I am not interested in a ‘hook up’. Yes, yes, I miss sex…a lot…but not enough to jump into bed with some random dude that happens to think I’m ‘hawt’. In all fairness some of these guys can actually spell. I had one guy IM me and say, and I quote. “You are frickin cute” of course I replied ‘thank you’. I hate shallow but I also try not to be the girl who can’t take a complement. Anyway, he then said the following: “I have the body of a greek god and a cock to match. take it or leave it”. Um, what?! Did you seriously just say that? OK sure let me jump right on that!!! Not only is this guy clearly a shallow prick (and in case you guys haven’t figured this out by now, I HATE shallow), but he is also an arrogant prick, which is even worse! I politely declined his offer and he said it was because I couldn’t handle a god…sure buddy, keep telling yourself that. I’m sure Zeus himself trembles at your name. Sigh.

And speaking of Zeus, I do think he is just giving me what I want. OK maybe not Zeus but some god or goddess. I let myself get all insecure about my looks (not hard to do in this day and age) and now I can only get shallow guys that focus on how pretty I am. Yes, I needed the ego boost…badly. Now the ego is fine. I know I’m good how I am and any improvements are gravy. I get it. Guys have told me, my wonderful councilor has told me, my friends have told me, my family has told me, hell, even my supervisor at work has told me…I’m a very pretty girl. I get it. Yes. Yes. I don’t mean to complain. I’m happy so many people find me pretty. Who wouldn’t? Now I want people to see there is more to me. I am fun (if you’re a gamer/comic geek), I can hold down conversations, I want something a little deeper. The world is too shallow. You’re too fat, too thin, hair is too long, too short, nose is too big, too small, lips are too thin….I mean my god, I’m over it. For real.

Anyway, speaking of my geekness…Bruce Wayne is finally back! Batman Inc is in full swing…DC, this is the dumbest idea you’d ever had. Yes, even worse than fucking with Diana’s history or whatever the fuck you’re doing to her. Batman is, by nature, a loner in the night. Yes, the Bat Family kinda grew around him but that’s different. Those are his sons and friends and…whatever Stephanie is to him. But turning it into Batman Inc? Of all the superheroes to franchise out you pick fucking Batman? What the hell happened to Bruce when he was gone? Did he turn into Ollie? Because franchising out a secret ID seems way more Ollie than Bruce. DC, this just proves, once again, you don’t fucking know your own characters. You fucked up Jason Todd, who has so much potential it’s not even funny. You let that idiot Felicia Henderson fuck with Cassie and Conner. You did that stupid ass Diana storyline. Now this? Seriously, about the only think you’ve done right lately is making Stephanie Brown into the new Batgirl, which is an awesome series, btw. Oh, and the Red Hood mini series was great…right up until Thalia seduced Jason because she was pissed at Bruce. Seriously Thalia, you’re pissed at Bruce so you fuck his son? Really classy. Oy…

And finally, for those that don’t know, there is a new network called The Hub. Not all cable carriers have it, luckily mine does. They show some great classic shows, but by far what I’m enjoying most are the repeats of the 60s Batman show and Batman Beyond. I love the camp of Adam West’s Batman and Burt Ward is hands down the best on screen portrayal of Dick Grayson ever…because let’s face it, teenage Dick really was that cheesy. Hell, sometimes adult Dick gets that cheesy. It’s one of the many reasons I love him. An Batman Beyond is actually way better than I expected. Terry isn’t 1/2 bad. I hate it when I’m wrong.

So now that I’ve rambled on about everything, thanks for sticking with me you guys and I promise all of my sites will have new content soon. I’ll stop being lazy and post new podcasts and stories. I do have the material to post, I just gotta do it.

KTF,
Cilla